I cant believe it, but I am in the complete mood right now to blog. and when am i ever in the mood? once in a... never. this is un-real...!
To start off.. whats the deal with onerepublic, and their awesomeness? Seriously, I love them. Every song is a hit - im in love. And for those who also love their music, they're coming to the Mod Club in toronto Feb 6th! $23!! I'm coming out from loo for the evening!
And another thing i must mention is JUNO. wooooweee amazing. The music is so cute that me and my roommate has already learned all the songs on the guitar and can sing to them! moldypeaches, antsypants, kimya... Sea of Love by Cat power is beautiful. So beautiful that i want to get engaged while that exact song is playing in the background.
Its my last term in uni and these 4 past years have been out right incredible. The people i've met, unforgettable. The memories we've shared is going to live with me for the rest of my life. The friends i've made - I'll keep close to my heart forever. I cant believe how lucky i am to be where i am right now. These things you just never want to end. And graduation is RIIIGHT around the corner. Where did time go?
This school year has definately been the most crazy. Crazy asin the good crazy and alsovery much the BAD crazy. just insane. And i know i've definately grown and learned from each situation God has put me in.
I know this is a weird place to share, but its kindof easier in someways. I lost a friend in September. She passed away a couple weeks into school and that messed me up so bad for weeks. Confused and angry, I wished I could do something about it but it was too late.
Things like these you just cant control - I just wish I could have helped in anyway. I would've been there for her. The last I talked to her was when she was working at BT and she hooked me up with a free mango slush - my fav. Who knew that would be last time I wouldve seen her. Memories of her still haunts me every day. The only thing that comforted me was what a friend told me when he dealt with a similar situation... "All our buddies always gathered after the fact and we talked about the whole thing. We laughed, cried and shared old memories. Then we all eventuallymove on, but we never ever forget." I still dont completely now what happened that day, and i try not to overanalyze it.I couldn't even find the courage to attend the funeral. I still struggle, and im slowly moving on, but its true - i'll never forget. And i learn, and I change so maybe i can help someone else in the future.
a week later i find out about other crazy news about a friend which i wont say here but that was a complete SHOCK. Thats 2 shockers in a weeek. I kept pinching myself in class to make sure I wasnt dreaming. All of it was so unreal.
Gosh and last week - the drama I went through last weekend. Sigh this one is my own fault lol. And now i'm facing some consequences and my heart is seriously broken and i'm confused as ever about my relationship. Not so fun, but i'll live.
Life's goes a little wacky sometimes but we all just gotta keep on truckin'. We all have our struggles andhow we deal with it defines who we are. Sometimes we just gotta suck it up and deal with it - it sucks but its part of growing up. But the best part is that we know we have ppl around us to love and support us through it all.
I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you
And all along, you were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything
that I need just to make it, but I can see that
Lord knows I failed you time and again
But you and me are alright
We'll say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi
I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would have fit
I figured there's nothing to lose I need to get
some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Lord knows I'll fail you time and again
But you and me are alright, yeah
We'll say our goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need all we need, our lover's alibi
And every single day that I can breathe, you changed my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by
So don't say your goodbyes you know its better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, our lover's alibi
