Here I am, it is the year 2023 and I am clearing up my email because it has reached full capacity and I am currently planning my firstborn's 3rd birthday party and cannot be missing any emails.
I'm going through old emails, memories, photos, lots of spam.. and then I come across my old blog.
I click through the posts. Some make me laugh, others make me squirm, and the old me just laughs at the young, care-free Jessica.
So here I am 15 years later, married to an incredible man, given birth to 2 beautiful boys, living in the most beautiful neighbourhood in Toronto and grateful for where life has brought me. I thought to myself, how amazing it is for me to have recorded all this, otherwise I would've forgotten about all these little life events, feelings, emotions, friends, family.. I need to continue this. Record my life and remember it. Celebrate it.
So it is the year 2023. Right now I am currently:
- On Mat leave with my second one (and trying desperately to put him on a sleep schedule)
- Planning a fabulous birthday party for my first born who is turning 3. The venue is a Riverdale Farm. I was instructed by my toddler to supply: popsicles, lollipops, and pizza. I got 2/3 - I have cake that's all that matters.
- Tired, feeling old, really feel like I've aged after having kids but they bring me the greatest joy I have ever experienced
- Feeling grateful for my life and the journey I've taken and the people who I've met along the way
One thing's for sure, I'm no longer as animated and humorous as I once was. Its as if I've lost a spark, a light within me. Oh motherhood is so tiring. lol. At least my spelling and writing has improved.. hah.
Jaimee's finishing her 2nd last year at Schulich. Jordans working as a specials constable in the city. Parents, grandma, status quo. We are two years post pandemic. I gave birth to my second son with COVID, wearing an N-95... giving birth (both times) was physically and mentally the hardest thing I've had to do in my life. But was it worth it? Completely, 100%. I love my boys and my family.
Maybe I will keep this up, fingers crossed.
Sincerely,
J