ahh..woke up this morning worrying about it. dreamt about it all night aswell. dun't know why i can't seem to get the thought out of my head...and its driving me insane. its not like i didn't talk about it b4 ..but even so it doen't make a that much of difference, i look stupid saying it...and it still gets me worried at the back of my head. why am i using wut happened in the past and trick myself into believing it now? can't believe i was awake so early this morning. can't believe i spent so much time jus analyzing it and making it into a bigger deal than it relly is. and i know its not a big deal..but sometimes you let it get to you and it relly kills you inside cuz i've been keeping it in me for so long. and the more i bring it up, the bigger the issue seems. so am i supposed to talk about it and clear it up? (which relly doesn't clear anything up but only makes the issue more open and i open myself up for embarrassment?) or do i just leave it, trust, and hope that it'll slip away? both ways..i know i'm gonna still be thinking about it no matter what. its hard to drop. esp. wen ppl aren't helping the situation for me to trust even more wen they know i'm super sensitive in this area. cuz i know if this never gets solved, and if i keep this thought at the back of my head its gonna do some serious damage in the future. but what am i supposed to do about it? not in the mood to phone anyone up right now to talk. don't think that'll do much. but i do know someone who i can go to that can provide me comfort, reassurance and peace. someone who is etermal, almighty, and neverchanging. someone i don't have to question and worry bout how much He cares for me. someone who can help me carry this burden for me. gonna go give that person a try.
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