this concert was definately comparable to switchfoot - when i went like..2 years ago at the koolhaus. this venue, "modclub" was definately muuchhh better than koolhaus..it was sooo cute! small and intimate, the way i like em. um, another thing i really liked was the crowd. older bunch, adults in their 20s - very sophiscated and classy people. more mature, and more fun in a more mature way you know? haha. (i dun't know what that was supposed to mean..) anyway..very impressed. he sings alot better live i think..and he's alot better looking live aswell. not that he's GOOD looking..just better than what he looks like in his video. haha.good crowd+ awesome venue + amazing artist = two thums UP
"Addiction starts from a person's search for God..."i attended this media workshop today held my Campus Crusade called "porn nation". it basically addressed the fact that the world is becoming more and more into a "nation of porn", how we idolize sex by abusing it, expliciting it, and playing nievely with it. i don't want to go into too much detail about this specific topic, but i learned alot of things on a more general scale.one things for sure, you've probably heard people say: if what i do doesn't hurt anyone or influence anyone negatively, it's ok to do. i don't think people fully understand the indirect affects of addiction, whatever it may be. even if no one knows about what youre doing, it WILL affect others - in the long run. the man that came in today realized that his addiction was so serious, he realized he couldn't control it anymore - to a point where his wife and 2 sons left him after a 15 year marrage. something so small, so secret, something that you wouldn't think wouldn't hurt anyone..grew into such a problem that it costed him his freedom, salvation, and integrity. it slowly killed him inside because he kept getting high off of it, not knowing how to stop it, being a prisoner.
"what you feed will grow. what you starve will die."sick world isn't it? billions of dollars is spend on the sex industry every year, 3 billion alone spent on child pornography. sick eh? and year after year, those numbers will just keep increasing unless someone puts a stop to it. For the guy who shared his testimony, the more he kept feeding his problem (by exposing himself through the internet, cable TV, magazines..) the bigger his problem grew- leading eventually to an affair with another woman while he was married with 2 kids. He allowed himself to be a slave of unpure desires. being obsessed with this, his entire life revolved around this god. porn ran his life. it fed him, satisfied him, left him wanting more, and secretly killed him - until he became suicidal.i hate to say this, but this story im sure is common amongst many ppl today. and it kills me to see people throwing so much away because they can't put up a fight.looking at our own lives, we build idols and our own gods. im sure it may not be this extreme (maybe it is for some), but its all the same, isn't it? self-evaluation: what does my life revolve around? what are my drives? what are my desires?i don't think topics such as these should be so "taboo". i think people should address these problems instead of ignoring it or pushing it aside. create awareness you know? then maybe we'll start getting somewhere.
...my heart just skipped a beat.
"i feel it in my fingers......i feel it in my toes"
i think what happend last fri night was incredibly..i can't even start to describe it. it was terrrible, but much needed. i've never experienced soo much emotion and brokenness in soo long..something i never would've thought i'd ever have to deal with or experience. (and no, im not talking about anything along the lines of sex- just to clear up any misconceptions! haha..i don't sleep and tell...actually i don't sleep around PERIOD. ..) anyway all jokes aside!..it revealed so much that it provided a chance for change and improvement.. we're recovering soo well, and we've both improved into a better person, i think. im was soo afraid that it would happen, that when it did, it was the hardest thing to accept. but thething is, im not accepting it, instead i am PUSHING for change. im soo happy with us. youre doing great, we can fight through this together. imm soooo proud and im here to support you through it all...not too worried i must say about being in different towns for the next 12 months..and constantly off and on after that. i'll go where the wind pushes me - haha most ppl say i need it so i can become more independent.. w.e guys , i wont break..
bye jaimee
jaimee and my mom is leaving for HK this wed..!! crazy or what eh? spontaneous for sure. well anne got us incredibly cheap tickets.. $300 round trip..amazing huh? my dad couldn't go cause he's writing a government test for a certain job interview soo..he's stuck at home studying! pray that he does awesome so he could start getting into the working world again.. and also pray for my mom and jaimee for a safe trip and stufff..without my dad being around. truthfully, i'm really worried about them two, traveling half-way around the world...at least they're going with jasmine and anne and her husband.. still! i can't help but wish i could be there to take care of them and help out you know. plus, j doesn't do well on trips..im not going to be able to stop thinking about them!!
i d o n ' t w a n t t o l i v e w i t h b o y s n e x t t e r m ! = ( b o o o oPS why am i up blogging when i have an exam tomorw morning?!
11:30 am stats202
12:40am bio140
1:30pm euge picks me, carson and paul up and head to toronto!
3:00pm euge has interview at AGF canada
3:30pm parked across ACC for $25 and head to eaton centre to SHOPP
6:00pm head to sushi restaurant for dinner in the heart of dt toronto.. *melts* i love the city
7:30pm arrive at ACC where we bump into KD york from mowat doing security! ... fantasia from american idol opens.. (terrible, just terrible)
9:00pm kanye west
10:30pm show is over..head over to pick up ps2, mcD's, and then head home with the two lovebirds carson and paul in the back singing to coldplay, greenday, olp, oasis all the waaay back home..
im soooo broke. no one is getting any good christmas presents from me :(
ok i had to revise the last post because i didn't want ppl to get the wrong impression, and definately did not want rumours starting.. lol
especially with posting stuff on the internet, i realize that anyone could read it..so i try to be as vague as possible..which means people can perceive things in their own way. lol and we don't want any trouble. ehhe.
i definately had ONE particular person in mind..who knows if you know them or not...so i hope you guys dont' start thinking that i'm unhappy with everyone. ahah. im not a bitter person! but definately i should really "censor"the things i say on this blog, or else people will get the wrong impression. lol and that one person wouldn't be anyone who would probably read this..so don't start thinking its you! no worries. and i have nothing personal against this person either... i was just in my reflective mood..
OK sweethearts, thx for your comments anyway. i think i'm going to change the web address for this blog so i can start being a little more personal in my blogs -so that i don't have to worry about misinterpretation.. sorta for my own sake.
sry about the confusion! :S
it seems like everythings just changing so fast. it sure doesn't feel that you've been gone for too long - but its definately long enough for the changes to occur.
some changes are for the good, or for the better. and some are definately not.
i see alot of changes in people for one. some people have stayed the same, some has drifted off, and there are some who you just can't forget about. there are some who you just don't get along with..i you have no idea why it has to be that way - even though you wish it wasn't that way. there are some who you haven't talked to in ages becuase of differences, and now i finally understand the struggles they're going through. there are some who you once trusted so much and shared life with, but has found new and better opportunities that they forget about the past we've built. others who have hostile fronts; even some who you try to love, but won't accept it.
and then there are others. someone, who i've looked up to, has just always supported me and given me that sort of respect i don't deserve. this person makes me feel a little more secure and at home everytime i see this person - somewhat of a father figure. someone else who i can always feel at ease to call up and never be afraid of awkwardness or silence between us no matter how long it has been. few who you can talk to (who you haven't spoken to in awhile) and the few sentences spoken are so real and genuine. a few who i know won't change the person they are according of what circumstance they are in. one who i know will battle through my everyday struggles with me, and take my back in all cases. and another one who has always believed in me regardless of the mistakes i've made in the past.
every single reference i'm making refers to specific individuals. too bad this blog is open on the world wide web..or else i'd put names to every statement.
change happens by the second. and its going to be even more different next couple terms.. lets see what change does to me - will it strengthen me or defeat me. please don't come too soon 2nd term - "i like it here", just the way it is now .. (><)
james blunt is coming to toronto for a concert!!! Oh my goodness.. !! sold out already..scalpers are selling them for $200 US already..and the tickets are only worth $15
i will see you in toronto on November 23rd james blunt. i will be there.
and i will see you kanye west in toronto this wednesday.
this is a typical telephone conversation with eugene loo:
*ring ring*
e: ...
j: hello?
e: DROP THE BOMB JONNY, DROP IT NOW JONNY!
j: euge?!
e: oh hey babe. (in a annoyed, busy voice, busily typing on the keyboard)
j: hey, i just wanted t-
e: OMG PAUL! omg WHY..MOVE BACK! OMG what the HELL ARE YOU DOING!
j: euge? i really want to talk tonight.. i had a real bad day...
*silence for like 5 minutes* i'm like sitting there waiting for a response..
j: EUGE!
e: whats that hun?
j: i said, I NEED TO TALK TO YOU
e: hunny not now..me and the 'boys' are bonding...
j: how is playing warcraft BONDING time?
e: its like you having a 'girls nite out' with your girls. you girls go out and look at clothes, and we boys like to play computer games. its the SAME thing hun. now, i wouldn't stop you from going shopping with your girls would i?
j: euge. that has nothing to do with each other. you've been playing all week, can't you just not play for ONE night, please?
e: awwww pleasseee...i can't..really..they'll all get mad at me if i leave.
j: who cares if they get mad. you don't even know these guys. they'll get mad becuase they don't have girlfriends to call at night and they have nothing better to do. cmon euge.
*silence again for another couple minutes*
j: just forget it, i'm going to go
e: sorrrrrieeee.
j: no your not, cuz if you really were, you would get off right now.
e: ok
j: really? you'll get off?
e: what? what did you say?
j: i said..so youre going to get off now?
e: what? no
j: ok just nevermind. call me when you want a girlfriend back.
e: *laughs nervously* k, i love you?
j: right. BYE EUGE.
e: er?
*hangs up*
i hope he realises that dota isn't everything one day.... one day... ;)
