so i got a call from ccnc today..and i didn't get the job. BUT its ok..cuz i'm sure the person they choose would do a great job..if not better job . congrats to whoever if was. it was a tuff call. they told me they had a hard time picking, we all had excellent qualifications ...there were 4 of us that got an interview..of the 200+ resumes they reviewed. :D that made me feel a lil better about myself. heh

but relly, i wouldve never gotten that interview in the first place without being soooo involved with the commitees at church and fellowship in the past coupla years. relly. i mean, the position was "program assistant". i would be helping out plan the events and conferences they held, and showing up to them to make sure everything would run smoothly - and thats pretty much all i did for the past coupla years in fello. help planning coffee houses, fri nite prog, cell group activities, etc.

so serving God comes first. and all the other great stuf that you may get from it is just a bonus. getting this interview was just a bonus. obvsiously i didn't join commitee just to get "experience" or get community service hours or to make my resume look better. heh. and that is the truth ppl. i choose to do it cuz i wanted to make serving God a priority in my life. that took alot of sacrifices. it meant taking ownership of the fello; excelling in ur role as a leader. that may include checking up on the worship team/prog leader to see if everything is alright and reddy - showing up early in fridays to offer help - investing time in relationships outside fridays - being involved and active even wen you're not in charge - focusing on young potentials and building them up to be strong leaders - envisioning God's plans and goals and turning those into a reality - prayer with leaders before prog starts - and soo much more.

i learned that

1. being a leader isn't justbeing satisfied by doing ur role. but to extend the duties and responsibilities of ur role and excel. to do MORE than the recommended.
2. you can't put God in a box. don't limit Him! omg don't doo that. becuase u'll be disappointed if things don't turn out ur way. maybe He has other plans tha'ts not exactly linear to wut you had in mind. its not about wut you want. its about wut He wants.
3. if you have a vision for your felloship or retreat or wutever it is.. lets say you envision ur fello to "grow" or wut not. it starts with YOU. start planting those seeds. i mean if you want that in ur fellowship, ya its great to talk about it..but start acting! and don't wait for others to start. GOo for it!

it is soo rewarding to be part of a big picture. and everyone has the potential to be part of it. so why not. aren't we called to anyway?

* 1 down. 3 left. no, not exams, im talking about ed's goldfish. :( shhhh! he doesn't have to know! :X